Summertime sadness

This video is close to my heart... very close... here is a little background story behind the song and a deeper explanation to why its such an emotional song. If you don't know this already but most of my covers/song writing comes from a deep place within wether it be a random fun happy moment to a broken heart.. any emotion any feeling i get when i hear a beat... or lyrics i feel emotionally attached. So every time a song plays i'll remember that feeling... that moment... even to the moments i recorded and covered the song.. it's a sea of emotions. So to get back to why this song and when even this song touched me.. was middle of September my brother and mother forced me to finally leave Angelina's side hopping it would do me some good. I was really silent in the car while my brother was driving around the area of the hospital... he finally wanted to break the ice and play some music and Lana Del Rey's remix came on of summertime sadness ....and at that exact moment memories of the summer .. driving back to Montreal from Ontario lyrics like: 
"Kiss me hard before you go" = scared not knowing if she would make it.
"I got that summertime, summertime sadness" = coming from an amazing 3month vacation to this moment of finding out my daughter was diagnosed with cancer.
"Cruising down the coast goin' 'bout 99" = the many happy moments we would spend on the road driving back and forth to see my family during the summer. 
"I just wanted you to know That, baby, you're the best" = she's the best part of me and not having her in my life would be unimaginable! 



Those were just the few of the many lines that instantly touched my soul and later on in her journey towards recovery the lyrics "Nothing scares me anymore" = had new meaning the scare of the thought and months of feeling like i could have lost her forever. that nothing could scare me now more than that feeling. if i was ever scared of anything it was nothing compared to the fear and the on going fear of possibly loosing my precious baby girl. 
I never intended to start crying during the video process.. i thought it would turn out cute and id smile possibly play with my hair like i always do... but the first few sentences came in and i felt that pain in my chest every feeling came rushing a complete body rush.. their were parts of me just silently standing and crying tears pouring while the music was playing in the background... some of those moment in which i added on the video. 
I really hope you enjoyed my cover despite the sadness behind it... summer of 2013 was bitter sweet... memories of happiness and then memories of sadness crashing .... only to hope that summer of 2015 brings nothing but happiness ... joy ... laughter on her pretty face... 

Here is the video:

(link to video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aOYN3nb10sg )

Never before seen photos...will also will be posting princess Angelina's dress Ana Botelho designed for Tessuti .. it was her 2nd entry for the "2014 Jaywalk contest entry" she decided to make a dress for angelina since their was no age restrictions for this competition! she's amazing.. incase you missed it .. i posted on my page long stripe dress 

(direct link here: http://www.missfrenchy88.com/2014/06/2014-jaywalk-entry-dress-3.html?spref=fb)

Details on Angelina's dress/accessories coming soon.. keep your eyes open for it.. hope you enjoyed getting to know me .. and my little family! 

Rabia xox